Hmm... guess you didn't talk to her. How does she look? i mean, everything fine with her? Perhaps you could tell something from the overall "look" of her. Well, maybe it's just God's way of telling you she's been doing fine. or something. Whatever it is, don't think too much about it yea? I was looking through the MINDEF website, at the contract thingy again. I don't know why but i'm afraid of signing up. I was just kinda worried, like what if i failed or something? or what if i couldn't get used to the life in army? or i just felt like it's not what i wanted? Sheesh. it's like no turning back. On the other hand, what if i weren't selected? I don't know why i'm worrying so much actually. I mean, there's nothing to be afraid of yet i'm just, well, fearful. *sigh* I guess i'm just too prone to think about redundant stuff. I guess i just need someone to give me a push, to reassure me that everything's gonna be all right. I think you would rem "TeSs". You should, having to see it almost everyday during sec 4. It was on my pencil case, if you'd remember. Well, i was kinda surprise coz just few days ago she, well er, she confessed about something. Haha~ I wasn't a shock. But it wasn't something i'd expected. u know i've been in contact with her right? Well, i wonder....

saw candice yesterday. thinking of her till today.

Stayed home today. Had 2 hr lecture but decided to skip due to the rain. and other factors. Well, nothing much has been happening lately. It's a lot of work in school and exams are coming. Apart from that, life's been pretty stale. Hmm... no idea what i wanna type actually. But i guess i just wanna "talk" to someone. And i've no idea who to talk to so i'll just type it all here. But i have nothing much to say.... weird...

WARNING: parental guidance required. twisted logic involved. learning is life long but youth is short. so dun study now, just play all you want. - kokboon we are merely pushed by societal pressures to study. we could remain stagnant, but most want to advance. afterall, we can't finish learning, and we can't just play anything anytime. PS: can be found in "kokboon's book of twisted logic"

nothing... popping by to sell: IBM 128mb SD-RAM PC-133 one-sided @ SGD70.00. if interested, please contact me @ kokboon@shinningstudios.com which subject as "WTB RAM". thanks! =) PS: In Singapore only. sorry.

woah... seems like han's got a happy time giving free advertising. those sites looks good. great info for me too. hmm.. next time teach me more.. you should. i hope. got the "another mi" and "me!" mails (only pple involved will know). never had the intention to reply to such forwards, but this time, directly against me.... what baboon... haiyo. but then again, not going to reply anyway. read it a thousand times, answered in my mind. but i don't have any friends to email to either... so forget it... come to think of it... i use email entirely for work only and information only. i entertain spam, tolerate advertisements, delete forwards, and never reply to chain mails (created one though, out of extreme boredom). i never tio email virus or bugs. my windows and office too updated to be hacked already. a great supporter of microsoft windows update site. kekez. hmm... still thinking if i should apply to be pilot in AIR FORCE! once in a life time. danger also go try. might not even get selected. criteria so stringent. frankly, i scared of heights, wondering how i am going to survive that. come... someone play swing with me, test me limits. (chey.. swing only..) and.. han! how did you know i tot you block me? the fact is i accidentally blocked you.. HAHAHA... then i couldn't send you messages. how dumb. then i tot i am blocked. at least accidentally by you. haiz.. make myself a luffing stock. A levels coming. head on. crushing. dun think i can get three As. it's possible if i have more time and stop being lazy and stop typing blog. (oops) 15 JAN 2004... turning point in life. enlistment. feeling homesick now. alot of things unsettled, undone. things that doesn't have a conclusion to it. but i am someone who is "you tou you wei", dun want to leave things undone before going ARMY. i will not RIP if i die in NS, possible. more possible if i am a pilot. not being pessimistic in this whole chunk of text, just preparing for the worst. i am like that. preapring for the worse and striving for the best. hmm.... forgot why i suddenly start rambling all these.... random thoughts. well. guess i'll stop here. all the best peeps.