last blog for the day before i go army... feeling super sian now... have to go back to camp. ARGH! this whole day really boring. don't know what to do and have nothing to do. packed my field pack to bring back to camp, laid down the stuff to wear and bring along on the table as well, then stone for the rest of the time till almost time to leave... haiz.. sian... cannot go anywhere.. =( I MISS SINGAPORE! hahaa... played online game for don't know how many hours. got popcap.com, games.com, bonus.com, yahoo.com blah blah... hmm... can die of boredom. and oh yah! surprised that malaysia also make online game www.fairyland.com.my. downloaded and installed, now brother play. oki lah... kill boredom! haiz... other people going back as late as 2045 lor... why do i have to reach there by 1830??! hmpf unfair! and i was one of the lastest to book out of tekong! wah lau... sian sian sian... lolx.. so much complaints... i haven get sand leh... hmm.. maybe next week then say lah... grenade throwing not so fast... nowadays all the playgrounds become rubber flooring, only can get (steal) from construction sites or take from beach. then how? huh? haiz... father driving me to pasir ris later... fast, but i rather go there alone. more relaxed and more control over my own time, no need to coordinate here and there... so stressed. haiz... oki lah... father's back. i thnk i gtg change and go le... sobsobx.... byebye

there are somethings you simply can't do it alone and will need someone to understand and sacrifice so that the outcome is desirable. otherwise, one of the parties is bound to suffer... haiz... very sad. have to go back to camp tomolo!!! haiz... I DON'T WANT!!! i SERIOUSLY want to just slack around. han, you can pon BK but i cannot pon ARMY... so dun set bad example for me! keke~ some of the clothes still wet eh... dunno if will dry by tomolo with this kind of rainy weather =( these 5 days really pass very fast, it's like i just book out yesterday and i have to book in tomolo that kind of feeling. so can imagine how i feel the next time i book out on weekends, with only approx 2 days break... it would mean might as well stay in-camp and not come back. but then again. cannot. cos i have to bring clothes back to wash and dry... haiz... mama suggested that i go han's house to sleep over and also wash clothes there, then compensate the utility bill. but... so dumb! just come home lah!!! nothing is better than home, home sweet home. WAH!!! headache... no GF headache, got GF also headache. chinese zodiac say i will have "tao hua yun" this year but... i will be in ARMY eh!!! who will be my "tao hua"? lolx! but my platoon like got gay leh... scary.. aiyah... but i dun want any tao hua lah, i've found someone whom i love now, and in this relationship, i put my trust... i dun mind $$ though. hahaa... papa say this year COWS can win alot $$. but i not pure COW leh... half RAT can or not ar? haha... *tired* & *blank*

feeling very sleepy now... cos it's 2 hours past 2230 already. to think i used to stay up until 0700.. hahha.... hmmm...5 days of new year break... really pass very fast eh... IT's SIMPLY NOT ENUFF! the thought of going back for the dreaded trainings really can make one go suicide... but i'll try to keep in mind that march 25 is coming very fast... i still scared i'll fail IPPT, never in my 19 years i scared of failing physical test leh... hahaha.. NS really change me. lolx. hmm.. birthday the same day as new year not that good afterall lah... cos cannot go gai gai with friends, have to stay home wait relative to bai nian... haiyo. but nvm lah... brithdays, just another day for me... time really flies leh... it's like 3, 4 days le, but nothing much seemd to have happened, not much to talk about also. marked my father's words: "chinese new year in Singapore is not vibrant at all, after the first day, everthing becomes so quite again... whereas in other countries, people celebrate over many days and the festive atmosphere carries on..." hmm, true, here we have holiday, but we not enjoying to the max at all, like me, keep thinking of going back to tekong, brother keep worrying about homework, han still goes back to BK blah blah... Singapore...

woah... first week of NS is over. finally some rest i get now. schedule for my batch - enhanced batch - is really packed and we hardly got time for personal stuff. supposed to have 2 week confinement but the chinese new years helped. haha.. good good. NS for me feels more slack then NCC. i think i had gone through worse things. and when i see other platoon mates so slack and taking their own sweet time, i feel like telling them off. i can't stand them taking their own time... maybe it's becuase i was a platoon sergeant before. think NCC is more of discipline and NS more of practical aspect so that's why there is not much punishment. the food there is just too much lor... if my platoon sergeants don't excercise their tyrant POWER soon, i think i will get fatter and fatter. every meal cost at least $15 outside lah... and it's all the da yu da rou... eat until tummy bloat sia... and they have this "wasting food is a chargeable offence"... scared of food liao. i wondering if our ARMY really go out to war, what do they eat. then we have water parades, even worse. tekong temperature is 1 degree higher than mainland, so they have make us drink SO MUCH water to prevent heat injuries. but, even on days when we have lectures in aircon room, they also make us drink like mad. it's like half a litre at ONE GO, then they send you to have your MEAL with a bloated stomach... seh liao... then i wondering, if MALAYSIA get conquered first, where will we get water!? haiz... i also dunno why, but i can't do pull-ups now. if fail IPPT, i will have to RECOURSE! need to train hard le. but... where got time?! hmm... die... hope can POP on 25 march, then i'll be freed from tekong! good good. today is new year eve... and it's like everyone's not around then cannot tok to friends online. so sian... then arms pain pain dunno because of the trainings or the double-simultaneous-jab-in-the-arm (better not be). i kinda miss her leh... haiz.. but then she so busy like that (xin tong) then we one west one east... *SIGH* just missing you lots... then you still rub it it, tell me you with andrew and shuai ge in company blah blah.. worse one... hmpf! TELL ME!!! WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW!!!! *bored*

2 days left.... wah... finally. so hard searching for the javascript function i want, took like 1.5 hours. glad the random music is back, and with even more - can specify which music you want if you don't want it to be random. cool~ aha... quite happy that one of my primary school friend actually remembered my enlistment date and sms-ed a well wishing, compared to some other who ask 1000 times and still asking today EVENTHOUGH my MSN says: "2 more days to...". lols.. funny how there can be different kinds of pple. BUT, no offence haha.. it really doesn't matter. =) i'll have to pack my lugguage later i suppose, should have most things prepared. still thinking which bag to bring. felt quite xin fu last night with someone accompanying me through the night and happy to meet up with han again in the morning for breakfast. then getting to meet andrew is yet another exciting moment - haha - he always add spices to conversation. not bad, not bad at all =). what was most suprising was... when he exclaimed "chio bu!". was thinking what chio bu he looking at in han's phone. the first person to come to my mind was sarah and the second, which i tot "better not be.." was leslie and indeed, it IS leslie. i dunno to "HAHAHA" or to "..." lolx.. *dIaoX* oki lar... leslie's above average lah (better than most pple)... but not that extreme also mah... (sorry abt that hehe~). now i very scared. almost everyday i hear someone saying she's chio... she's SO wanted!! and now, she's at some KTV with dunno who also... sian.. worried for this BLUR her. what attracted me to her was her innate character actually... maybe i should take some time appreciating the looks as well and then TRY to realize she's so BABE too... and feel even more fortunate now. lols. erm ya... hmm.. ha.. ya know.. ehem.. yea... hehe~ k.... not much i can write now... but knowing if i stop here, then there is nothing much i can do next... so.. quite bored you see. hmm. think will write somemore later. taTa~ for now.

3 days left.... headache now... sian... feel i'm falling sick and it's 3 days left!!! oh no... later first day only i sick chicken le... went out gai gai most of the time today (relative indication of time)... never really do much. but felt quite smart this whole day hahahaha.... it goes: recieved an email which looked like this: ------------------------------------------ From: PayPal [verification@paypal.com] To: kokboon@shinningstudios.com *some graphical header, navi and paypal logo is here* Dear paypal user, We would like to inform you that we are upgrading our server to install a better protection software. So please click here *clickable* and fill in the registration form again to renew your account. Paypal Administration. Thank you for a using PayPal! About | Accounts | Fees | Privacy | Security Center | User Agreement | Developers | Referrals | Shops Copyright � 1999-2003 PayPal. All rights reserved. Information about FDIC pass-through insurance ------------------------------------------ and when i click on that "click here", it brings me to an online form asking for my details. and in the address bar it says: http://www.paypal.com come on.... would you believe it's REAL? i DID, for a minute, and suddenly realize it's a spoof! nearly submitted my credit card number... phew. have recieved many other such spoof emails before, but it never took me that long to see through. so this is the best so far. i gotta learn how they do it! haha.. despite very well concealed, there are some loop holes and i hope as i share it here, you will be spared from trickery next time: 1. "verification@paypal.com" is too specific. in business point of view, seldom will companies use such name unless frequently used eg. always require pple to verify stuff. soemthing like admin@paypal.com looks more realistic. 2. "kokboon@shinningstudios.com" looks too informal. for a company like PayPal, they should address me by the first and last name. the informality can be clearly shown by the use of "Dear PayPal user". i would expect something like "Dear See Kok Boon" 3. upgrading to a better protection software has nothing to do with the database of users. even if it has, in an IT analyst point of view, they should have backuped the database and then copy it over to the newly protected database. 4. the "click here" link brings me to an online form, but, the site is not a secure site. a secure site is denoted by a lock icon in the browser's status bar on the bottom right hand corner. i would expect paypal to use a secure site to ask for my credit card number and many other sensitive information. 5. the address bar says "http://www.paypal.com". i think this is most pro! they actually are able to change the address. but still, it's a blunder. firstly, a secure site would have "https://" instead of "http://" and secondly, www.paypal.com shouldn't be an online form!!! it should be the main www.paypal.com site!!!! (visit www.paypal.com now and you'll see the main site) 6. a check on the source of the email (right click > view source), you will notice the that the "click here" links this: "http://www.paypal.com%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01@66.6.128.90/f/" now... does this link look like a like to www.paypal.com with some encoded info? yes it does! but look carefully, and i teach you how to decipher... let's say you have a link link this: "http://www.macromedia.com@255.220.153.67/news/main.html" it looks like a link to macromedia site, but it is actually a link to 255.220.153.67 site. how do you read? - http:// - the protocol, in this case, it's the normal web page. could be ftp:// https:// and blah blah... - www.macromedia.com - the username used to access the site - @ - the character code to denote www.macromedia.com is used as the username - 255.220.153.67 - the domain name (this is IP actually, domain names are IP aliases) of the server/site you are accessing - news - the folder are you accessing - main.html - the file you are accessing so if we look at the email's link, - http:// - the protocol, in this case, it's the normal web page. should have been https:// at least/ - www.paypal.com%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01%01 - the username used to access the site - @ - the character code to denote www.macromedia.com is used as the username - 66.6.128.90 - the domain name of the server/site you are accessing - f - the folder are you accessing after all these... clearly, the email is not taking you to a paypal site. hmmm.... so.. was the info helpful? becareful next time... =)

4 days left.... (issit?) hey... i suddenly lost count of the days left. =/ i still haven't send the email to the guy, because he require a portfolio but we don't really have a proper one. and while i am still the my blog, suddenly feel like making it look nicer, and i did! went to figure out how leslie cheated to make the tagboard show alternate colors... and CHEY... can log in to tagboard to change it. haiyo... blur me. actually i would have gone to sleep, but the music in her blog makes me want to put music in mine too. =) and so i did, went to the music site and i surfed. realized something. dunno much about music, so what do i do?! don't even know what should i put in... haiz.. eventually, i did what i am better at: editing code. haha... and now i have a blog which plays random songs!!! then i wont have to bother to change the song or decide WHICH one to change to =) feeling satisfied, i went to sleep.... - 8 hours later - *yawnz* just woke up... 2100 now...refer to previous entry below - 5 hours later - finally!!! completed the spark radio promotion link and script!! now it's becoming more pro. peeps, can help promote Spark Radio pleeeeeeease...?? next time if we are streaming the promotion pticure will link you to the stream URL directly =) knowing that i must now email the guy... (i'm like classic example of procrastination)... i started to compile the list of things i (and tim) did. SO MANY!!! I HAVE ALTOGETHER 80 DECENT PROJECTS DONE!!! and have a lot more substandards works. they are either UGLY, INCOMPLETE, USELESS or codes which cannot be shown. realize this is really alot done. i am still in my wet levi. the INSTRUCTION says i should wear it while it's wet so that when it drys, it takes the shape of my body... mama woke up and say: "SHEN JING BING!"... well.. i am just following instructions... *shrugs* .. hmm.. but i am falling in love with it le.. =) not even 7am yet... finished my nasi lemak already, was actually last night's 2nd dinner, but i forgot all about it until just now when mama scold me for leaving it there to spoil (nasi lemak you see.. coconut and all). so i went out to eat to please her.. hope i dun get stomach ache later. hehe~ PS: i dunno why my PREVIOUS entry is suppose to insert into the middle of THIS entry... i really lost count of the days and nights... i tot it's monday today just now before mama reminded my it's sunday... HUH!? *blur*

5- days more... *yawnz* just woke up... 2100 now. feeling quite seh. backaching and messed up hair. don't really know what to do next. always see brother playing diablo 2 makes my sian of it even when i not playing... the optician had called this morning to inform me that the new frameless is ready for collection, dunno if i should get them NOW... or maybe before i go NCC tomolo, which i still dunno what time will it be. brother just went down to play bball again. and i am alone again, like this morning. wah... this house seems to be like mine all the time when i am awake, no one else is around. the project team is quite efficient ar... especially the design team (realize creations, haaha). in this same day received their confirmation and documents of project structure and timelime. looks like madness to me. so many features so little time. but i think we can do it. hopefully we get a good effort to profit ratio. i'm half-half about it actually. on one hand, i hope we clinch the deal, on the other, i hope we don't. cos i don't have much time to spare for work soon... and i dun want to work like a siao, later tio mad cow diseases... OH YAH! tim, i forgot to reply that mailing list guy again!!! okoki. i'll do it right after this. hmm... haiz, don't like to write formal documents, very troublesome...

4+ days more... yeay!!! finally completed the draft website for the proposal. feel lighter now. although it's not a fantatic one, at least it's decent enough i guess... can temporarily go back to slacking mode for the next 30+ hours i suppose. phew. it's another day without sleep, and still awake at 905. waiting for mr teh to wake up... quite glad that i was able to go out with han and les and also to buy my army stuff. also bought the levi i tot i might like. but i realize i am such a dumb dumb - i really dunno much abt clothes. dunno if i can fit into that levi - "shrink to fit". it was also the most expensive day so far although i has been very expensive for the past few weeks already, spending and spending... just hope the websites can help me earn some cash back to cover the big hole in the wallet. anyway, going NS then got some allowance... then can add to savings too =) hopefully i live through to use it. 645 mama woke up, saw me (not sleeping again), she din bother to nag at me anymore, she just give up already, moreover sleepness nights doesn't harm me at all. instead, we greeted each other in a tiao pi way...and she went back to sleep. before i know it, it's 7 already and mama is once again up together with bro... and we started chatting while still doing our own things. that's the good thing abt a small house, no matter where you are, your family is just a shout away... then i started to tell her to pause and realize something... i am already 18!!! and 19 soon... i really am not small kid already. and i also reminded her that she is getting older already. and so, there is really no need to worry abt me anymore, not even abt going for NS. she just *sigh*, maybe is a sign of relieve and maybe it's kind of se bu de... as i sit here in my room watching the clouds pass by, it makes me think back how much has passed... many many things come and go just like the clouds and no two clouds are the same... and that is just too much to calculate.... oh... someone just come online and chat with me... so i can blog liao... nearly go into explaining some profound theory... save it for www.kokboon.com

** 7 days more... i remember to blog again. bloggin is fun when i am bored, but becomes a chore when i am busy, like now. nevertheless, it helps me to divert my strained atttention abit before i get too frustrated by all the syntax, logic and abstract errors i get from all the programming and designing... last 2 days slept a total of 8 hours only, which resulted in a throbbing headache at night. even as i walk down the street with you.. i coudn't enjoy to the max, but still... it was a wonderful night. =) thanks. came home and buay ta han.. have to sleep at 12+ (or was it 11+?). anyways, finally had a good sleep. woked up by brother who inconsiderately switched on the room lights. sat up and saw both computers still on (forgot to switch off at lsat night). feeling refreshed and BUSY, forced myself to jump off bed and start the day... went to eat the so-called-very-nice nasi lemak @ $1.90... well, commonwealh to kokboon is like dover to timothy - sian. flashes of web design continued in my mind as i came home and complete the school's quiz plus send email notification to teacher... belair belair... what design would you like? hmmm.... i think i'll blog first... (repeat **)

9 more days... oh.. just when i tot i could finally feel bored and have some freedom to slack around, i receive an SMS from my ACJC teacher... finally she replies, and i have to continue with the incomplete school's webby. so here i go, about 8days+ left and i have to make everything nice nice for her. ok... slept at 1400+ and woke at 1900+. spent my time doing "2 Alarmed!", which is actually "Alarm! Version 2.0". if i can finish it in the next few days, it will be up for download! muhaha.. maybe abit of it's story: Alarm! is actually an alarm clock program that runs in the background then when it is time, it notifies the user. most of the time i make programs is becuase i need somthing i cannot find. i used to be so engrossed with work on the computer that i always forget about the time especially when i suppose to meet someone. Alarm! is good becuase i can set it you stop EVERYTHING and distract me. lols. oh.. thinking of that.. today i visited the most irritating site ��������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������������

it's 10 days before i go NS and i feel like a lazy bum now. there are lots of things i want to do, yet with ten days time i know i surely cannot complete them and there is no point starting it. i am sure sometime in life you would have been asked "what would you do if you know you are going to die the next moment." i think i feel exactly this way, do nothing. really, and just... enjoy. there really nothing much i can do already. it's 0617 now, and no, i don't wake so early, i just didn't sleep. i carried on this way for days already, being nocturnal. the night is still the best time of the day because it's quiet and i am alone. i won't get bored being alone, i enjoy. in fact to me, you can never be alone because there are so many other things around, you probably felt lonely because you left them alone. today, set up some items for sale on ebay singapore, my username's "seekokboon" search for me and buy my things please... computer books and 4 zip disks. i don't need them already and they are still new. once again how i wish i have a digital camera, had to take photos of the items but i scanned them instead. =/ my mind's everywhere... leslie, hantiong, bible, websites, MSVS, business, bel'air, NS, bio clock and.... candice. the past 2 years had been full of suspenses which lead to negative outcomes.. i feel, is the most wasted time of my 18 years of life... (hmmm going to 19 soon) so far... i could have done more. actually, i know it would turn out to be like this, but i sacrificed... it didn't pay off eventually... dissapointing. at least.. my greatest burden was put down once and for all after reading that blog... thanks. actually you should have told me earlier then it would save everyone trouble. all the best to you... ya... really.. sincerely. hmm.. now... my heart's somewhere already. save it for someone else who wants it oki? don't blame me please. mama just asked me to bring you home for US to see eh... new year day you come oki? dun shy ar... lols. hmm.. and your turn... so, read your blog. so emotional... well. i cannot do anything unless you want me to, but i will be there... i won't have anything to give you, except recommendations yah... sometimes people give you alot of things, but you never realize and thought you have nothing and then you feel empty... try to feel around, i am sure there is something for you, even if it something you think you don't need. maybe you will appreciate them more if you stop to think "What if i didn't have....". suddenly think of chritianity again... it's something bad again... so i shall not say it here, if you want to know, i tell you again. 0643. guess it's time for breakfast. taTa~ for now.. still have to go gai gai later at around 3pm? hmm... take care everyone.