it's monday morning again. listening to FM933 now over the internet. me very detached from the music world. haiz... looks like sparkradio really cannot sustain without DJs and 24/7 service. the past week was one of the most xiong week i ever had so far. there were almost no admin time, don't even have 20 mins for me to do up the o-ba-chart (heirarchy tree for our tank platoon). so "lucky" i kena arrowed to do it. haiz. the first one was so nice, but they say too fanciful... make me do another one. *hmpf* most of the xiong come from the outfield - dual tank battle course. last monday went back immediately changed and go vehical shed do up the tanks, load up all the inventories and complete the servicing works; then on tuesday early morning went to NDP NE debrief rehersal; come back straight changed to coverall and moved out to the training ground. the place was not very hot, but there was no wind at all. and dressed in that suit makes us all feel uncomfortable and makes us perfect targets for insects. i had a big patch of insect bite on my right arm, fortunately, it's healing now. the very tiring part is all the camouflaging... imagine chopping down trees (yes, TREES, k la.. its branches keke~) to "decorate" the tanks. i couldn't sleep well the first night (second night no sleep), insects keep buzzing around me. i had to cover myself from the head to toe, leaving only the face to breath, with the ground sheet so that it doesn't attack me. but, i woke up realizing my forhead is badly swollen with insect bites... see how fierce they are!! returning back to camp the second night doesn't mean rest. because we still had to clean the weapons and tanks all the way until 530am... and the next morning have to wake at 630am for breakfast and continue to clean weapons. it's not easy to clean because they expect 99.99%. still we manage after more than half a day. i thought we could rest then, sui zhi dao... they bring us to wash tanks - *faint* took 2 hours to wash 2 tanks. took 1 and a half days to clean up the washing bay!! because it rained heavily during the outfield so there were lots of mud stuck onto the tracks and body of the tank. the layer of mud and sand in the washing bay was near to 5cm thick. it was a horrendous task for just close to 10 people. we all felt like construction workers... is friday by now, recieved news we could book out. so we hurried everything we did to book out ASAP. but before we could clear the choke in the drain and sewage we had to go for ICCT. and... at this moment, i was suddenly recalled. "10 mins, change to SMARTEST 4 and come down!" they next thing i know is i am in CO's (the biggest in the whole camp) office with 4 others. "the reason you are here is because you are chosen to be the welfare commitee" and i was like... "HUH!?!?" that means, i will be extra work to do, but still no welfare. *sigh* i raised a few issues in that meeting.. ya... but, i dun think anything will change in near future.. anyway, i rush back for ICCT (intermediate close combat training) doing break falls. the instructor was very inspiring and fun... rarely can see such a fun guy haha... in army. as soon as fun was over, we were back at the washing bay clearing the choke. there was no way we can book out if we continued to dig with the spade and crowbar through the narrow opening in the drain. so i sacrificed my whole hand up the the elbow, dug and dug... and *ouch* got cut. *shrug* it was worth it, we could go back to bunk and change to civi... it was suppose to be a book out - the entire batallion did. our's was a nights off. UNFAIR AGAIN! haiz... =( so was quite dissapointed. also cannot meet les =/ friday ended with coming back to camp and sleep. it's significant because it's the only day we sleep 7 hours uninterrupted. anyway, my knee was injured somehow i dunno how. feel like la (pull) dao gen (vein). so i din enjoy the book out. but i was allowed to be excuse from the marching the next day. so i wasted my life sitting in the indoor stadium from morning till night just to wait for the others to finish rehearsal. after the dreadful long wait.... finally book out! yea... the past week seemed forever...so long so long... came back found out GameHAQs was down! (OH NO!). the database was corrupted. doesn't seem like a force breach, just a computer fault. but it did great damages, and i lost near to 500 users! *sobsob* managed to bring it up the moment i see a computer at leslie's place that saturday night. only managed to pei her so little... haiz... sunday had to come home le... mother miss me as much, i can see. did some restructuring to GameHAQs this day and... nothing much le.. basically stoning around. but i tried to do something new - writing BOTs. although i'm doing a game hack site, i really have no idea how to write a hack! i know nothing about hacking... so i tried to read up and write a program! haha... after quite some time, i managed to gather some of the programming code together and created a program which could build zerg drones in starcraft.... the first BOT i ever create! haha... but it was just a test program, conceptual only. feeling accomplished, i went to bed at 12+am

"yea... i'm back." "HEY! but today is wednesday! how did you manage to get out?!" "attend C" "what happened!?" "fever" TUES NIGHT 2000h: sobsob... i can feel i'm heating up. i tried to get panadol from medic but he told me to take temperature first before talking to him. too bad i dun have a thermometer. so i just din bother and plan to let myself get the fever and report sick the next morning. TUES NIGHT 0120h: i first woke up by the disturbing heat rushing into my brain. i was overheated and dry and weak. muscles aching and bones chilling. got out of bed and headed for the toilet to drink lotsa water. just then, i realized, there was a blackout!! and the fans in my bunk is not working! i was hot yet cold from the inside. terrible. eventhough we lights off at 2130h, i din have at least 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep. i kept on waking and flushing myself with water. WEDS MORNING 0545: fever subsided. but i was still feeling very weak. still no thermometer, couldn't prove i really have fever. so i refused to report sick, in case they take the chance to say i "chao keng". i carried on with the static stations of today's IPPT test... until... i told my PC (platoon commander, usually an officer) about my situation when he asked me to run 9.44mins. WEDS MORNING 0920h: i was forced to report sick. WEDS MORNING 1145h: i book out. haiz. what else... oh yah. my bunk is now starting to become obsessed with "MAGIC the GATHERING". not becuase it's satanic, but becuase too bored nothing else to play. i have an album of MAGIC cards as well. last time i picked from somewhere. according to my friend, there is a $50 card as well as other valuables ones. looks like i can get some extra cash if i sell them =)

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	erotic
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	burn into my heart
Your touch is...	the only thing I desire
Your smell is...	amazing
Your smile is...	entrancing
Your love is...	eternal
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*sleepy* oki.. just got home from a great day.. spending close to $100!!! in one day eh.. haiz.. i'm spending too much. CONTROL! actually wanted to pass this day with as little $$ as possible, so i planned to just keep walking from chinatown where we will have our morning dim sum, then to geylang to have lunch, then to east coast park to walk walk, then to bedok to have dinner, then go home... but... we ended up like chinatown to raffles place to cine KBox (for 5 hours) then to tampines where we meet hantiong =) first time go KBox. very expensive. 2 persons for $43++. siao! but then nvm la... for you. then the dim sum also very ex.. $47++. actually wanted to use the NKF coupon which offers $25 off with every $50 purchase. but sway sway eat until $47++.. then cannot use the coupon!!! *ARGH* should have eat another plate of "chee chiong fun"... haiz. then at KBox - haha. i really cnnot sing all the pop songs. alot never hear before. only familiar with the older songs. lolx. i living in the wrong age. first time go.. oki lah... new experience. i never sing through mic before. i think this is my first time... very bu yao lian de sing even though all off key! haha sorry 'bout that. today, hantiong have to take cab down to tampines... haiz.. i heartache for him. i know money not easy to earn.. make him take cab i guo yi bu qu... but happy that he can get his $200 bucks for topping in one of his subjects. now he's a genius in his school. ha. glad for him. must jia you. dun waste it. next time will get recognised by the different employers. had dinner and a little chat. before going back where i am NOW. and.. dunno what kah hock is doing. i thought he's supposed to come back and have a meal with us? hmm.. hope everything is oki for him... *very sleepy* goodnight!

argh... leg very *suan*!!! come home from NDP rehearsal. ankle still hurts. i think it's terminal stage already. haiz. today is CR3 (combined rehearsal 3) and is opened to public to watch us perform. but then.. i think is only about 80%, moreover we still not good yet. so... not worth watching also. lucky i din go grab the tickets for greedy mama... haha!! if not she'll be dissapointed. this week quite physical. IPPT, then cross training in-camp, then GYM training and eventually NDP... muscle no time to rest also. now still aching. friend asked me to use "counterpain" but i dun like to use artificial methods... so... i'll bear with it.. just that i may not survive the SOC on tues when i return to camp. *bleah* haiz.. IPPT i still cannot get gold... i need to run 30 seconds faster!!! to get below 9.44mins. i think it's just determination - i've got not enuff. i hope can get gold and be done with it ar... sian... get my $200 and that's it for the next 8 months. else, will have to keep on doing until i get gold. that's the 46 bronco company rule. (i'm in bronco - B). so i cant just get my $100 with a silver... =( ever since the M113 HQ drivers left us, i've got the luxury to share one whole bunk with 3 other mates. so 4 in a bunk! haha spacious! and our bunk has been like the center for entertainment. people eat and sleep and tok cock, play chess and guitar and pillow fight - in our bunk. ha... some how.. my friends are startiong to become more and more interested in MAGIC THE GATHERING. one has even bought a deck to start with. for me.. i think i'll never buy.. (eventhough, i feel i'm the ultimate cause, cos i spread and advertised).. cos waste $$ leh.. haha... nvm.. still old players are coming back (hopefully) to play in bunk during slacking times. oh.. and about the TO BE CONTINUED part... i forgot what i want to say... i think it's just... "the person who you should trust the most is, yourself" and.. once again... i'm busy. because of the new webby.. and also because i feel i must pei her weather the storms in her life at this time. that's the least i can do - to give any support i can afford. sometimes.. in fact.. all the time i feel bad neglecting other friends, but i just hope they can understand. like keep rejecting derrick's invitation... and not toking to peiru for so long... but.. really, you people still stays in my heart. someone brought the ACJC year book to camp. i was flipping through it. once again, i felt utterly dissapointed and uneasy at the fact that i wasted 2 years of my life there. not even a single pixel of the whole book belongs to me - even the class page doesn't have me in it! no momeries - nothing. images of fairfield still stays in my mind fresh. friends from FMSS truly precious... makes me feel sad to part. haiz...

another few weeks passed before i can finally settle down to blog again... even now, i'm typing with sleepy eyes. (pause, let me set to word wrap first) ... (done!) oki. i'm defragmenting my laptop now. it's getting slower by the days. was waiting to use this com i am now on since 0900 when i came home from les's place. but brother was playing pristontale again! luckily mama pulled him away to eat lunch with her right now. yesterday and previous sunday had NDP rehearsals - SUNDAY - ya. so mondays like today became an off day. but everyone's busy on mondays, so i just have to stay home and pei my computer. finally got to see hantiong one of past weekends.. forgot when was it actually. was glad you're picking up right now. and thanks for the japalang drinks... ha. last night was awakened by your SMS at her place! lolx. *ehem* i saw everything... haha... kidding. last week just completed my first out field tank training. it was a 2 day affair from tues morning to wed night. but... since we passed 12 midnight on wed, we came back on thurs morning and only get to bathe at around 0530. i brought back with me lots of insect bites (not mosquito k...) and they itch like mad. i couldn't sleep properly... fortunately it's getting better now. except that there's still scars on the legs. then... from mid june till now, it has been quite hectic. there's quite lots of stuff to look into. ventured into a partnership with a friend in army to create http://www.gamehaqs.com. spent quite some effort to get it up and running and now it's growing. but when there's up there's also down... someone close to me met up with some drastic family problem, makes me worry so much too... then father came back this week end. but only got to see him less then a day.. haiz. heard he's company doing fine and he manufactured merchandise for EURO2004 so i guess that's really good news. =) then kah hock is coming next week end... hmm but i think i cannot join him liao. =/ at the same time also trying to teach HTML to 2 of my friends in army... but.. they doesn't seem to have as much interest to learn as me... oops. well.. it doesn't matter. cos i'm *CrAzY* hmmm... i sort of kicked up the subject about what we are going to become, what we are going to do in the future... i ALWAYS like to do that. because i'm very curious to know what these pple, friends, and potentially competitors, plan to do with thier lives. and through conversation, i'll learn about new ways things can be done. i like to debate also. haha. can force pple to think very deeply and let out all the secrets they know. lolx. but i contribute too lah... and so i find that very few of them have the enthusiasm and confidence to make big successes. very seldom they see a bright future decorated with numerous opportunities. and the funny trend is that higher educated pple will be more likely to take a step at a time, letting things to take its course; whereas the never-study-so-much pple will dare to dream big dreams. some think they are naive, but i beg to differ. ... to be continued...