Saturday, December 18, 2004
see, i have this particular blogtoday.txt file that sits in my computer and whenever i want to update my blog i would open and edit it. the primary reason for this is so that i can write halfway and save. or in case i click wrongly, which i sometimes do, then lose everything i type.
now, this time i open the file, i see thie following:
"u must remember... i really love you alot alot... just that i may not be able show you how much it is now, or you cannot feel it as much as i do... i'm bounded by so many things. really thank u for being so loving, understanding, patient and thoughtful..."
"you're so far... yet so near"
ya, that's it.. i think is the last time's unfinished blog entry.. so i shall attempt to recall what i trying to say...hmm.. no clue. but should get what i mean...
forget abt that for now... let's come back to the present and me-be-tired *tongue*!!
thurs - wake: 0515 / sleep: 0300 + major servicing
fri - wake: 0445 / sleep: 0300 + outfield driving
sat - wake: 0515
very sleepy now.. muscle ache all over!!
although was outfield yesterday, it was the most fun outfield i ever had, cos i went driving FINALLY in a tank. the commander was so scared i drive very fast because i first time drive. still, he say i was good! haha... the escaped theme park is the FIRST TIME i drive actually... haha.. although is nothing compared to the tank. *bleah* hope can drive most next time. oh.. aiyah, then i also got make mistake. got once i reverse during parking i had to accelerate so much to make the tank move because engine was weak. After stalling for a few seconds, the tank suddenly jerked and sped backwards almost hit the rover behind. then i was !@$# by the captain... *oops* but i bet it's not my fault, so i showed him the very confident face! haha.. he nothing to say.
hmm, now i'm very confident of driving a BMW or MERC le! my brithday coming ar... so you know what to do hor? keke
read her blog le... so many emotions in one week. gosh.. life's so exciting. ???? keep appearing in my mind. later must remember to ask her le.
this morning so forgetful... had to return to camp from cck to get my specs back! haiz... so sad. i see the gate i want to cry...
and haha... my brother go read the LEARN VB6!! i so happy for him.. he FINALLY showed interest in programming and took the effor to at least read every single word until end of lesson 2. i not asking im to be like me, but i just hope he can pick up new skills along his life. a child's learning potential is the greatest, i seriously hope that he dun lose the potential by not learning. playing is just as fine, if you know there is something to learn in everything. it's not learning that will cost you your future.
besides, i really want to impart ALL my skills to brother, someone i can trust TOTALLY. and of cos to dear dear.. because she has the potential.
can't think of anything now as yet... only thinking when to leave house. hmm.. will be back.
PS: ARGH... have to book in tomolo le.. so sian... 2100!!! haiz.