Little faith will bring your souls to heaven, but great faith will bring heaven to your souls. -C.H. Spurgeon- (No idea who he is, just found a passage on the net and saw this at the end. Lovely.) -

Verse1: I don't wanna be fake, to put on a mask when i meet u face to face. This isn't the way I just wanna be free from the sins that's holding me. Verse2: I don't wanna be dim, to be a dying light, As i'm walking down the streets. This isn't the way, I don't wanna fall, And let the darkness cover me. PreChorus: I don't wanna lie, Desiring the world even as i look into Your eyes. Show me the way, Set me free Chorus: Set me free from these chains, Set me free from my pain. Set me free, Set me free Lord Hold my hand firmly in Yours, Use me for Your wondrous cause, By your grace and mercy, Jesus, Set me free ??Bridge: You see my heart, you know my mind You've bought me back with your life. Lord, i pray, just hold me tight, Lest i stray away from your side. (Just the words... no tune yet...)

Why do i miss you that much? My tears flow like a flood, unstoppable, Unbearable, Pain that peirces my heart. Do you hear me cry out? When the silence in your heart resound? Undeniable, Unforgettable What this love is all about. Maybe i'm not good enough, But sometimes, that's just not true. Perhaps we're just on the path, Where God's testing me and you. Are we standing firm despite challenges? Do we choose to climb above The raging sea and whirling water To keep this love, with Christ as our centre. Or do we choose to doubt ourselves And let our history bring us down? And never give love a chance to grow, But stay in our tears of sorrow to drown? I know it's tough and hard to fight, A battle that rages right in our minds. But remember, dear, that i'm with you, Together, with Christ, we'll see it through. Through joy and love, we'll grow together, Though there's hurt and pain, it's not forever. For Emmanuel, we know, God is with us, Was yesterday, is today Will still be tomorrow. (I don't know if i'm making sense. I'm just writing what i wanna write i guess....)

well dun be such a pessimist... tot you were a christian? look to him for strength.. =) but i think the most important thing you should realize is that you do not live for other people therefore you need not keep up with them... everyone's path is different because we choose to be different, even under the worst circumstances, our will decides.... so dun give up! jia you! you still have people like me concern abt you =) cheer up!

Oh well, it's chinese new year eve tmr. Time really flies. It's almost a year since i last went to visit Fairfield. Sadly, i've got to work from the eve to the 3rd day of CNY, so i can't really enjoy the holidays. However, life goes on, as it always does. Life's empty, as it always has been, but this time, it seems emptier than usual. Weird how empty can be emptier. That's not the point. I guess i've been much more lonelier than before. Weird how lonely can be lonelier. Never mind. Especially after the chicken pox that i had, things has really changed. Even my attitude towards life and my character and my life basically, it's all changed. Too bad, it didn't change for the better. I look forward to getting into poly this time. I need some directions and i think getting into poly is really gonna help. For this one year, i've really been really lost. Didn't really know what i was doing. Sometimes, i think i'm not mature enough to be out in this world. I think i'm still like a little boy. I guess i still am. Or maybe, i just don't wanna grow up. Maybe i know the harsh and cruel reality and i refuse to accept it, so i chose to remain a kid. Just maybe. Whatever it is, it's a new year coming up. I guess we just have to start afresh, be it as a kid still or as a grown up, for no matter what happens, one thing remains. Life goes on.

Hey! Guess what? I wrote a new song recently. And i got it recorded down into mp3 format. Think i can send it to you and then u post it on the 4B website? Erm... ya, that's basically it... take care~ And Happy Chinese New Year too!~

twinkle tots... yeah.. and so i thought of this site suddenly. neglected it for quite sometime, hope you didn't mind. btw, i knew i had to click the "post and publish", but i remebered the last time i wantted to do that was when there was some problems with the server... anyway... happy chinese new year... =) cheers!